Shambhala Times Article: Bandit Soup – A Recipe for Love, Courage and Songwriting
Shambhala Meditation Center of Los Angeles own meditation teacher and longtime Shambhala practitioner Bill Bothwell discusses his journey as a musician and student of the Shambhala dharma.
So I am a musician again! Even I want to know why I have returned more seriously to music and have made a record after letting it putter along for so many years. Songwriting has always been something I do, regardless of whether anyone else ever hears it, at least until now. I write songs because I need to. Music and poetry are an essential part of my life, along with politics, law, economics, meditation, Buddhism, Shambhala and the rest of it. It is all interrelated and perhaps interesting.
In any event, it was interesting to the FBI. Once I was asked to explain to the Lawyers Guild in Denver, Colorado how I transitioned from being a very radical member of SDS to other pursuits—poetry, meditation, music and the practice of law at a large corporate law firm. Later I was told that the Guild had filed a “Freedom of Information Act” request regarding surveillance of their meetings and discovered that the FBI had infiltrated the meeting I attended and had notes on what I had said. Surely this proves there is something interesting to everyone about a path that no one quite understands.
Young Mr. Bothwell with Allen Ginsberg
Of course music, poetry, meditation and the related disciplines can wander into love and light and fantasy very easily, but that was never to be the way with my dharma teacher Chögyam Trungpa, Rinpoche, nor for that matter with his student and my poetry teacher, Allen Ginsberg. For Trungpa Rinpoche, the contemplative traditions—specifically his Shambhala Buddhist dharma—had to work with, understand and finally command the most complex of energies, which include art, but also business, politics and war. Allen Ginsberg completely understood the implications of this point of view, insofar as it required exploring the dreadful poverty of second guessing your own creativity. Hence the phrase he and Trungpa developed: “First Thought, Best Thought.”
In the world of spoken art, there is probably nothing more challenging than on the spot, in public, spontaneously uttering song or poetry. But that became Allen’s world and the way he transcended the war of self-doubt. I still have recordings of Allen and me improvising the blues at poetry readings at Marpa House in Boulder, Colorado! My own experience in years of meditation practice, always writing songs on the side of my life, working in the high-pressured world of a large international law firm, all the while ensconced in the family realm, is that First Thought really always is the Best Thought, provided you can see it arise. From that vantage point there is relaxation. There is freedom and fearlessness, power and mistake, holding back and proclaiming, and, in the end, beauty. As Trungpa Rinpoche once said “you can celebrate your deformities.”
As a student and attendant to Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche, Trungpa Rinpoche’s son and dharma heir, my love for music, poetry and tearful cheerfulness only expands without interruption. The artistic issue (as best I understand) in this second generation is how the artistic seat we occupy can still remain innocent, true and pure, as Allen’s was, and still bring forth the dignity we must find in our splendid world.
If you would like to hear music, read lyrics and see pictures, go to my website Bandit Soup.
Scroll down to page 2 here for a review of Bandit Soup by Paul Zollo. The reviewer is a well known guy in the rock and roll world, writes for Rolling Stone, Variety, etc.
Bill Bothwell
Bill Bothwell is one of those baby-boomer outlaw-poets who left the American heartland for western parts and ports. He experienced rock ‘n’ roll, radical politics, journalism, and finally Buddhism. Under the influence of Buddhist teacher Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche and poet Allen Ginsberg, Bill practiced his own musical poetry in the Shambhala tradition. Eventually putting his music on the back burner, he went on to practice law, making him part, as his teacher said, “of the army of Shambhala lawyers.” He lives in Los Angeles and is now a student of Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche.
